Thanks Beth Sarim for clarifying. I socialize with many of my co-workers at work, but not outside of work. After work I am focused on doing my own thing, and going home.
But now i am very romantically interested in a Mexican devout Catholic very attractive woman (who is 30 years younger than I) at work who says and acts like has the same kind of feelings for me. She claims to have a position in her congregation giving a reading (apparently a lectionary reading) and she says in her congregation the Bible is read in worship and that people raise up their hands (like in praise worship style congregations). [She fits my idea of the woman of my dreams, both in regards to appearance, personality and emotional makeup, and intelligence.] I told her I am an atheist who was a believing JW. She does not have a child and she has no boyfriend. To me it feels like I am truly in love for the first time, but she is not willing to date anyone yet and thus far we just talk to each other, including while working together. I bought a gift (consisting of flowers and two kinds of chocolates) for her about one week after her recent birthday. [I visited three different stores to find the right gifts. She likes the gifts.] Previously I bought some fruit for her, of the kind she really likes. Those were the first times I had purchased anything as a gift for someone. Many people at work now know we like each other. One day I felt very jealous and angry towards her regarding her social interactions with a particular man at work, and on a later day she felt very jealous and angry towards me regarding my social interaction with a particular woman at work, but we reconciled with each other each time. She has shown far more interest in me (both verbally and non-verbally) than any woman (of the kind I found attractive) ever has in my entire life. We met about 9 months ago at work, but only in the past few weeks we have been consistently showing our interest in each other.
I had resisted becoming influenced by her displays of interest in me (and I fought off my own feelings of desire for her) for about 9 months because I previously chose to avoid getting into any romantic relationship, thinking that my independence is much more important to me (and thinking I would be happier by remaining single). But now I have been exploring what being in a romantic relationship with her is like and I find myself wanting to be with her everyday (and thus giving up a portion of my independence). Gradually our bond with each other is growing stronger.